The Key to Screw Loose ... etc.

It was not, honestly, my intent to write a story for this piece. The sketch appeared as a doodle, in June of 2022, and sat tucked in my sketchbook for years. I thought most certainly it was one of the most obvious of visual stories, with it’s circular composition and my ever present Seeker following a rather emotional pair of pants with nobody inside them. The hand, so reminiscent of Picasso’s “la Petit Fleur”; Seuss’s pants; and the Dove, my homage to my Catholic enculturation. But alas, my viewers pressed me to the task of interpretation, so I wrote a story. But remember, my interpretation is not the be-all-end-all of my visual offerings. You, my savvy reader, have a spirit within you that will guide you to interpret what I paint in a way that is most helpful for your own journey. Be still and listen for the quietest, kindest, voice inside you, for that is the one that will help you find your way. With that in mind, I present below the Key to the iconography of Screw Loose and Fancy Free - Chasing the Material World, so that you may read the painting for yourself.

The Iconography

• Bird and string – the thread to our higher consciousness is through the practice of Faith Hope and Charity.

• Three screws – Body, mind, spirit

• Running pants – the material world. Also a reference to Theodore Seuss’s What was I Scared of? a story about being afraid of the unknown. may also be interpreted as a life choice not taken because of fear inadequacies or potential outcome.

• Green eyed flower – the physically manifested Seeker, those who are looking for their life purpose

• The Seeker's Spine – the train of thought that advances and recedes our consciousness

• Gears – moving parts of the physical world

• Golden Key – astrology, through which we can learn how our character interacts with the environment

• Water – unleashed emotions which can sometimes bring us to new understandings of our self

• The Circular Picture Plane - in this story, representative of the cyclical nature of the portrayed narrative

But if you must know, my interpretation is HERE.

The Key to The Weight of Compassion

As the parent of an adult introvert with multiple health disorders, I spent years desperately trying to manage my child’s life. I bought things for him he didn’t need or want, offered advice he’d heard and dismissed before, made inane comparisons to the lifestyle of the physically-abled. Each time I saw him I asked hundreds of detailed questions about his health, using my status as mother to pry into every corner of his life, looking for the magic button to his wellness.

Then one day I realized that I didn’t want to talk to my parents, my brother, or sisters. I couldn’t bear the concern in their voices. I wanted their help, they wanted to help, I didn’t want them to worry, I wanted help to stop them from worrying, I wanted help to stop talking about being worried. It was like an emotional moebius strip! That’s when I snapped to what I was doing to my son. I was piling my worries, camouflaged as acts of kindness, onto the load of responsibilities his health demanded.

It’s not easy to break a 40 year habit of helicopter parenting, especially when your kid’s good health is a relative condition. However, I’m working to offer respectful, effective, empowering assistance at my child’s request.

This painting speaks of the burden we caregivers are capable of placing on someone who is mid-struggle. Though it was originally conceived and drawn more than thirty years ago it has a very special relevance to 2020. You’re welcome to interpret and apply it's message to your life using the key to the iconography below.

The Iconography of The Weight of Compassion

Poinsettia: good cheer, celebration and reassurance.
Sunflower: warmth, adoration, and dedicated love.
Freesia: friendship, thoughtfulness, innocence, and the ultimate flower of trust.
Hyacinth: playfulness.
Lilies: sympathy.
Giant straight pin: focused attention on a specific problem
Barbell: allows a person to lift heavier weights and make progress faster but they carry a higher risk of injury.
Roses: a pink rose conveys gratitude, appreciation, recognition.
Grapes: an opportunistic and expansive plant with thorny vines. Ancient Druids found it an inspiration for a relaxed, yet realistic mentality.

You can also visit the story this painting tells on my website HERE. The Weight of Compassion is available as a limited edition fine art giclée HERE.